Looking For Answers

Looking for answers, within the debris that is the external abstractions that surround me. A constant barrage of information, truth, subjective perspectives, distractions, manipulation, lies, hidden agendas, distortion, media coverage trying to force me to conform, to be another’s ideal.
The more inward the compass for validation becomes, the easier it is to fight back against that onslaught of conformity, of stagnation and eventual living death. That’s what I see when I look at “them.” The living dead. People who have become so programmed to seek external validation they have lost their own minds, any original thought replaced by a Consumerist, ostrich in the sand mentality. Lost to any potential, any drive to be more than those that came before them.
I don’t want to be one of the Living Dead, one of the programmed, so I fight. For me, not anyone else. I want my children to be Individuals, outside of any sheepish mindset, but I can’t make that happen. They make their own choices, unless I want to be like the kind I hate and force some weird indoctrination. So it all bleeds back to just me.
That’s the base isn’t it? Just you (or in my case me). Deciding what’s wrong and right, you deciding how to live, who and why to love, coming to an understanding of the human experience based on well, personal experience.
Self Deceit then becomes an enemy of epic proportions. With you being the only true gauge of knowledge, your personal experiences, you and your own subjectivity is also the biggest enemy. Emotional responses, personal attachments, preferences, etc may cloud the answer you seek.
So finding the answers relies on realistic assessment of oneself above ego masturbation. Realizing your innate imperfection being the real key to self sovreignity. That way you can rise above the self deceit, the lies we all tell to ourselves to justify our nature, in favor of a glimpse at the Objective, the hard, the real if only for a moment.

Learning Through Adversity

Any knowledge that is not rooted in experience is suspect. One sentence that boils the essence of a Praxis to it's most basic wording.

The issue with most of humanity is putting stock in their own opinions and what one thinks about any subject. There is even a delightful selection of labels to choose from, that let people know how you think about things. Most are bound to these rather Democrat, Republican, Christian or Satanist. A label based on thought, rather than action.

But what do most do? What is their true knowledge? Do these labels for thinking in a Super Serial manner indicate who that individual is?

As I interact with others, I see most of these terms of identification are meaningless to most. Is there a difference between a Democrat and a Republican? Not really. What about a Christian and a Satanist? Not for most. I despise it.

I have never really cared what "affiliation " one claims as long as they are living it, applying the philosophical constructs they espouse, in their daily lives. I can't stand a lying, cheating, selfish Christian, the same as I can't stand Satanists who still espouse morality, living within the law and the upholding of society's values over the individual and self sovereignty.

It annoys me because anything I truly believe I live. My life has been complicated, difficult, full of just as much success as failure, mind twisting at it's most difficult, full of heartbreak, strife, and adversity, but I have survived all of it. Grown stronger due to the hardship.

The funny thing about learning through real adversity, is you don't become "nice " or "good." You become harder, more willing to do whatever it takes to survive, to thrive, to do better. You lose the comfort of depending on others, rather society or people, in favor of you and your own judgment.

One year ago, I joined SIN. So I could interact with Satanists. I learn better by doing and interacting, not reading. Things I read have to relate to my life, or I don't really "get it." If I can find a mental bridge between the idea being presented and my own life, it clicks pretty quickly.

Finding and exploring Satanism has been the single most liberating experience of my life. I lacked the language to explain my own personal philosophical thoughts. Satanism has always felt more like RE-membering,  than learning something knew. I said on the Ooze once, "I feel like I am remembering what I always knew. " That still rings true.

At the end of the day, rhetoric is just rhetoric, opinions are just opinions, ideas are just ideas, and it's mostly meaningless bullshit.  Knowledge is a personal thing, based on experience, not what others know or think. Let your Satanism bleed out, color and affect every aspect of your life. I firmly believe there is no aspect of life that is free from being infected. No part of my life where I don't apply that Praxis, nothing that isn't altered by my own knowledge and experience.

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