There is always a reason someone, especially a Satanist has hit a major stumbling block. Most of the time for me, these stumbling blocks are a base personality characteristic, that is manifesting in an aborted manner. This is compounded with a refusal to reason. Every damn time. I do it, I will refuse, absolutely refuse in the most absolute way to look at my own behavior. To accept what I already know, if I wasn't turning a blind eye and refusing to change.
I will justify it. To the point of it being downright laughable. Like a two year old and throw a fit if necessary to make it stop. I will hate anybody who touches that soft spot. I will view them as the enemy. Why? Self examination is painful.
This is nothing like "breaking chains" (which is the common way, this has been described). Nothing at all. Breaking chains makes all of us sound like the Hulk using all of his strength and a ROAR!!!!, to get out of a jam.
No, it's like finding a small cyst in your leg, that aches a bit. So, you take out a rusty, slightly dull pocket knife and cut the son of a bitch out yourself. It's painful, there's bleeding. You may even want to stop due to the extreme nature of the pain. However, you keep going. Dealing with the blood, the pain, in order to remove this fucking cyst. This thing that just ached a bit. Then you sew it up, with a needle and thread. There is always a scar, They are visible to anyone who has done the same thing themselves.
These mental cysts are really cancerous. They cloud your mind and make you view the world in a distorted light. They will kill you, you are the walking dead until they are removed. More importantly, you can infect others, if you're not careful. It HAS to be done. Every damn time, to hell with any potential sickness, pain or consequences entailed. It's WORTH it.
At the end of the day, it all boils down to a refusal to use reasoning. That simple and due to the nature of the human mind, that complicated and painful.
I will justify it. To the point of it being downright laughable. Like a two year old and throw a fit if necessary to make it stop. I will hate anybody who touches that soft spot. I will view them as the enemy. Why? Self examination is painful.
This is nothing like "breaking chains" (which is the common way, this has been described). Nothing at all. Breaking chains makes all of us sound like the Hulk using all of his strength and a ROAR!!!!, to get out of a jam.
No, it's like finding a small cyst in your leg, that aches a bit. So, you take out a rusty, slightly dull pocket knife and cut the son of a bitch out yourself. It's painful, there's bleeding. You may even want to stop due to the extreme nature of the pain. However, you keep going. Dealing with the blood, the pain, in order to remove this fucking cyst. This thing that just ached a bit. Then you sew it up, with a needle and thread. There is always a scar, They are visible to anyone who has done the same thing themselves.
These mental cysts are really cancerous. They cloud your mind and make you view the world in a distorted light. They will kill you, you are the walking dead until they are removed. More importantly, you can infect others, if you're not careful. It HAS to be done. Every damn time, to hell with any potential sickness, pain or consequences entailed. It's WORTH it.
At the end of the day, it all boils down to a refusal to use reasoning. That simple and due to the nature of the human mind, that complicated and painful.
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